Abundance Yoga and Ancient Memories

I went to my third abundance yoga lesson today. Was totally excited about going though I felt guilty of not working hard at my career pathway. My heart was super excited about going and so I decided to have fun and enjoy myself. Also I was longing to eat the hummus in the middle eastern eatery opposite the shop space where the yoga was held. Though 2 other people besides me had signed up to come, they did not come. So I had a private yoga lesson. I love private yoga lessons. I felt very dizzy, fuzzy and ungrounded throughout the entire lesson. Towards the end, the teacher told me I had something very deep stuck within me. An ancient language I knew very well but was too afraid to speak. So she asked me to tone, coming around to put her hands on me to give me the healing support I needed. All the while telling me I had to let out that which was deep within me. Initially it was hard to tone anything and I just decided to tone something weak and safe. Eventually the toning became more authentic and louder. As it increased in intensity even my yoga teacher could feel its very powerful vibrations. I could see her vibrating as the energy released through the toning was so intense. Both she and I could feel that there was intense sadness in this energy. The toning became so high pitched, intense and loud again and again. Then after it subsided, I lay down breathing in deeply. When I tried to get up, I was still feeling very ungrounded and drinking water did not help. Then I started running on the spot and that made me get my grounding back. For me running, walking,dancing or standing near a garden is the best way to ground. Well it was so fun to release that. Seriously where else could I let out such intensity through my voice? Only in a car when I am driving with no passengers.Now we know why the other two people did not turn up for yoga lesson.

How I overcame the release of intense fears-Continuation of my earlier post for today

In the toilet I remembered the little voice in me that told me to apply my violet flame oil before I left the house which I thought was just my imagination speaking. I was in a hurry and too lazy to apply so I did not. I then realised my folly in the toilet and asked GOD to forgive me & that I will listen to it henceforth. Then the pain of fear lessened a bit. Then I decided to go out into a park nearby to ask the fairies to heal me instead of taking a bus. As I walked in the park, the symptoms of fear release lessened as I asked the fairies for help (even though the weather was scorching hot and I needed an umbrella to shield me from the sun). Then I remembered what I had read about plant spirits wanting to help people and saw a very common looking fern calling out to me. I went to put my hands on it and rub my back against it. Of course all in a very subtle inconscpicuous manner as the park was alongside a busy traffic main road.
Then the pain of fear released lessened even more. The more I kept walking by the plants, the pain and the fears kept easing.Then I found more strength to walk to a shop to drink tea and toast to ease my hunger pains and it became much better. I cancelled all my appointments and went back home to eat, bathe, write and read the whole day. I am retiring for the day. My body is still very weak because of the intense fears that were channelled and released through my body. Goodnight

A Nutritious Easy to Prepare Vegan Drink with loads of Protein and Calcium

1) Add 3 tablespoons of organic almond powder to half/three-quarters a cup of hot/warm water (I am using the Yuan Yuan Brand of Almond +Oat Powder which can be found in NTUC in Singapore).
2) Next add 2 tablespoons of chia seeds (can also be found in NTUC in Singapore).
3) Mix well for at least 30 seconds and wait for another 30 seconds unitl the chia seeds become more jelly like
4) Then it will taste like sago in milk
5) I love it sugarless

I found it yucky at first but now I love the taste of chia seeds. It gives me a very shiok eating desert kind of feeling. I eat it with just plain hot water or add them to my rice and pour soup over my rice. 2 tablespoons is a nice quantity to go for at any one serving.

Please dont eat it if you have adverse reactions to protein rich diets.

Autobiography of a Yogi - Paramhansa Yogananda

A very good read of a Yogi's Life - Paramhansa Yogananda
An Online Book for Free when its also being sold!
http://www.ananda.org/autobiography/

I cried when I read this book. Its very real, about real feelings for family, renouncing a normal worldly life of marriage for greater service and about emotional attachments to family members and even pets.

Its an autobiography written by a Yogi about his own life. He is a master  who is helping in the new age religious circles too as he is an ascended master and has such he is friends with Master Jesus. See what Master Jesus the ascended master has to say about him:
http://www.ascendedmasteranswers.com/spiritual-realm/ascended-masters/47-paramahansa-yogananda-is-today-an-ascended-master


This title kept showing up a few times after this master Paramhansa Yogananda came to one of my healing sessions. I also came to know of Kriya Yoga years before that. He is trying to teach me to lead a more peaceful life by resolving the dualities in conflicts through peaceful solutions. Doing yoga to increase my confidence and intuition are the other messages I am receiving. Still trying to figure out exactly what Kriya Yoga is. I think its a way to use the breathing to visualise the rise of the kundalini energy from the groin area(first chakra) to the head (7th chakra) without getting distracted. Its about raising our sexual energies to the level of the divine. I think sounding the word "AUM" helps in the process. I think its something to do with the energy around the spine area. I think its about centering our connection with the fact that we are all in the Unity of GOD and to keep our consciousness focused in GOD instead of the dualities of the maya of our body and human life.
If you want the facts, reading chapter 26 of this online book will help. Still trying to figure out for sure exactly how Kriya Yoga can be practised without the intervention of a GURU.

An excerpt for chapter 26 of the online book:
“Kriya Yoga is an instrument through which human evolution can be quickened,” Sri Yukteswar explained to his students. “The ancient yogis discovered that the secret of cosmic consciousness is intimately linked with breath mastery. This is India’s unique and deathless contribution to the world’s treasury of knowledge. The life force, which is ordinarily absorbed in maintaining the heart-pump, must be freed for higher activities by a method of calming and stilling the ceaseless demands of the breath.”
The Kriya Yogi mentally directs his life energy to revolve, upward and downward, around the six spinal centers (medullary, cervical, dorsal, lumbar, sacral, and coccygeal plexuses) which correspond to the twelve astral signs of the zodiac, the symbolic Cosmic Man. One-half minute of revolution of energy around the sensitive spinal cord of man effects subtle progress in his evolution; that half-minute of Kriya equals one year of natural spiritual unfoldment."

Releasing Intense Fears in the Unconscious-Beware

Today just before I left the house, I developed intense fear symptoms that felt like a very bad fever and made my whole body feel so jelly-like.I also had a little voice inside of me telling me to apply my violet flame oil before leaving the house. I did not take both seriously and walked out of the house in a very weak, feverish and jelly like state thinking it would go away. Throughout my one hour bus journey I kept shivering uncontrollably with the intense fears that were being channelled through my body. I was clutching my bag and my body was trembling uncontrollably as I messaged my soul friend. I then also kept praying constantly yet the pain and shaking was uncontrollable. However I saw people in the bus looking at me with awe as they always do wherever I go and that's when I decided to go through a mindset shift. I told myself that I was releasing ancient fears and the best way to go through this process is to pray with faith, go through the process with courage and willpower and keep affirming that the energy passing through me was god's pure energy and I was perceiving it as fear. When I got off the bus, I went to the toilet and moaned with more intense fears in the cubicle. It seemed to be getting worse....
So what happened next is even more interesting....Watch out for the problem solving technique I used in my subsequent post. Adios for now